Has it really been over a year?

Well, I guess I haven't used this in longer than I thought.

I guess you could say a lot has happened to me in the past year, and God has definitely been teaching me something, as He always seems to be.

The thing that has been on my heart specifically this morning is how much I hate losing people I care about. This pains my heart more than anything else. People are my passion, my friends are my passion. One of the things God has called me to specifically is ministering to people through building stronger relationships with them. I feel led to love others as Christ has loved me, and am stricken when I see relationships or friendships fail. The pain involved with losing a friend or someone you deeply care about is the most painful thing for my heart, and it has happened to me before. It can be hard and painful to try and repair things with those individuals in our lives, it can put out great heartache in knowing that you may never be able to repair things with that person to where it is completely normal like it was before. For some people, the pain will always remain even long after the end of the friendship or relationship. As painful as it is, we just have to trust in the Lord's guidance and love and trust he will lead us to greater things either with or without that person in our lives. Either way, losing someone we care about can be incredibly hard to understand and hard for our hearts to comprehend. The thing I have found that works the best, obviously, is keeping my heart in the Lord and trusting completely in Him. No matter what, He understands our pain, and will deliver us from it and into better things that are glorifying to Him. My prayer is that wherever God is leading you, that you would follow wholeheartedly, and if he removes someone you are close with from your life, trust in Him that He will guide you always, and that He has your best interests at heart. He loves you, and He will be glorified in you.